Thursday, November 25, 2010

Luna, my poochie.




 LUNA our great dane! We took her to my Aunt Julies yesterday and it looks like I'm going to be training her in agility. You might not know this but large breeds don't usually do this...but Luna did great! I got to take this picture with my Aunt Julies camera. She said it's just an older version of one I'm asking for!

I'm so excited! I love working with dogs like this. :D

By the way, HAPPY THANKSGIVING.

Toodles,
LIA

Friday, November 19, 2010

To Cuddles...who wasn't so cuddley.

Yesterday morning one of our beloved cats died; Cuddles.
My mother waited till last night to tell me because I had a busy day ahead of me and didn't want me to be effected by it. It was a shock because she seemed to be doing better than usual. She had gained weight, looked healthy but yet it was her time to go.

She obviously died in her sleep, thank the Lord for that. I'm sorry we couldn't give Cuddles a better life in the house but our Land Owner says no cats in the house. But I know Cuddles knew we loved her.

I feel bad that I didn't give her more attention but at least she got some and had a full life.

Yeah, I know this might seem a little over due for a cat but in our family pets mean a lot. They are like our brothers, sisters, children and friends.

Here is a picture of Mrs. Cuddles:
RIP Cudds. Love you!
Lia

New day, new dawn. Always.

I know I get dramatic and depressed sometimes. And I know that can be annoying. But I also know that I'm still fighting to be better--to be who God wants me to be. It's a constant battle between myself, the Devil, the world and God. Luckily, I know, God will prevail and in his arms I will rest.

I'm not giving up hope that God has great plans for me. Even if it is growing up to only be a stay-at-home mom, I'll do it. Sure, I'll throw a fit so loud everyone in Asia can hear it but I'll evidently do it. Even if that means being a lousy dancer, artist, writer, ect. I'll live with it. Once again, I'll throw the biggest hissy fit know to the world but like I said...I'll do it, won't I?

Sad how as God's creations we tend to forget who made us. The Bible says that God will never leave our sides for he made us! He formed us with his own hands. Yet we doubt those hands powers. We doubt their skill. Kind of--stupid--right? Of course because it's human nature to be stupid!

It always takes me a while to realize when I'm being totally stupid and when I do I'm really embarrassed. If people could see my blushing easily [plus to darker skin!] then I'd be red all the time!

Anyway, I just want the world to know that I know I'm a little drama queen at times but that's just something I can improve on right? I mean, if there was no room for improvement then why would we need God? We still would but we wouldn't realize we did.

I love all the people who read my blog---and those who don't. I love how you guys deal with my bad post and my worse grammar. I love how you guys act like you love me, even when I don't think I'm worth anything.

Mainly, I love God for every single thing he does. Everything.
Because, really, where would I be without him?

I pray for all my friends who are/have gone/going/about to go through rough times. I know, trust me, that it feels like no one has it as bad as you. But remember, all those feelings we have about being rejected or hurt, Christ felt from childhood to his death on the cross. Amazing right? And never once did he sin. Never.

Therefore, pray for me and I will pray for you. Pray for those you know and those you don't know. There is never a prayer that goes unheard. God makes sure of this.

And before I leave [well, you know what I mean.] I want you to think of the one thing that is hurting you the most at the moment and ask God to take it. Just do it even if you don't believe it will help. Because often the things we don't believe in are the truth.

Love y'all!
Lia

Lia

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Anger, Fear, Rage,...me.

I grow angry with myself sometimes. I lash out at myself because I can't seem to do something. Or I get my hopes high then I dash them out myself. Then I grow afraid. Afraid that I can't do anything. That--that I'm useless. Completely useless. Finally, I become enraged. I'm mad at God, me and the whole world. I want out and I want out now. That's how it goes.It's a cycle, a dangerous, vicious cycle that seems to never go. Never. I ask God: why me? What did I do to deserve someone like me? I ask him why doesn't he help me with me. WHy doesn't he send some blessings and rid me of me?

So basically, I don't know what to do with me.

Yeah, I know, I sound all depressing but the truth is I'll be over it for the most part by tomorrow morning. And that's what kills me the most. 

Am I really just being some dramatic, hormonal teenage girl or is it more? I don't know. That bugs me. A lot. Really, how down in the dumps can a girl get? How messed up can she be before it's something else? I want to know.

I can't help, sometimes, that me hates me. I torture myself. Non-stop. Why? Anyone want to tell me why? Anyone KNOW why? I'm sorry, I know you all have to listen to me rant and rave about me being so sucky and you roll your eyes because it gets annoying. Trust me, I know! I'm doing the same thing and I wish for it to STOP.

Hey, I might not even post this. Most likely won't--because I'm afraid. I'm always afraid. Always. I think that's what has put me in this state. I'm constantly afraid. Of everything. All the time.

Does anyone else feel like this? Feel---I don't know. Feel like I do right now? Like I do all the time. Like just laying on the floor till God decides to take you? Till you become dust on the floor?

I do. And I want it to stop. Now.

How?

I have no clue.

Welcome to my world. Have fun. And don't hurt yourself.

LIA

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

School + Life = Insane?

Next week we have....


EXAMS.

Those dreaded things. Those things that make your stomach churn and mind spin. Or at least that's what they do to me. Sadly. So, I have an Econ. Exam, a Sci. Exam and my Shakespeare project is due. I shouldn't be scared should I? Oh, but I am because that is MY NATURE.

No matter what I freak myself out about E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. It's annoying to me yet I still do it. Lia hates Lia. Does anyone else do that though? Over-blow everything? What I usually do is freak out so bad that I try to be prepared but only drown myself in my preparedness therefore I mess up. Yeah, vicious circle.

Anyway, drivers ed is--okay. I swear if I see ONE more video about drunk driving I will personally sign my self up for rehab with out having a drop of alcohol once in my life. [Okay, once when my mom let me try wine. Ew.] I swear I will.

I'm sure they're trying to press the subject for good reason, in fact I know they are...but COME ON. Every single time so far we've talked about drug abuse, signs and how to kill yourself in a car. Sounds fun?

Plus side is that I get to see a lot of people I know and haven't seen in a while. Like Bethany and Matthew. So, yeah. And I've kind of made a new friend who's name is Emily. We talk and sit together. She's homeschooled, loves dance, loves art and is sweet! Plus--she's ANOTHER Emily!

Oh, I guess I should explain that. So my brother Aaron married an Emily about seven years ago. My brother Jordan married a Emily this past January. My brother Sam is dating a girl by the name of Esther---and her older sister is named Emily. And get this---all of them are Emily Ann's. Crazy, right?

Well, I got to go. Bible study!! [Well, hanging out with friends for me. Haha!]

Bye.
Lia

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Love Songs

'Going back to the corner,
where I first saw you,
gonna camp in my sleeping bag and not gonna move.' 

There is rarely a love song that can make me feel all warm and fuzzy in side. [That's because I'm COLD HEARTED! Badah-bum! You didn't get that---did you?] 

Anyway, I decided to make a list of love songs that DO actually make me feel all warm and fuzzy. [Above our some of the lyrics to 'The Man Who Can't Be Moved' by The Script.]

#1- Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
#2-The Man Who Can't Be Moved by The Script 
#3- Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillet
#4- Rhythm of Love by Plain White T's

That's all I can think of right now but I'm sure theres more. I noticed the theme that they are really all the same genre. Not sure what the genre is called but...you know. Hahha!

Lia.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Love, Love, Love.

What is love? Why do we all want it? Why do we all need it?
Huh, I'm not really sure.

Everywhere I go, everything I see, everyone I know is obsessed with love. They might not know it but they are. I know I am. The whole world has been obsessed with love since day one.

Agape Love...Unconditional
Philios Love...Friendship

Eros Love...Romantic.


Everyone experiences the Philios Love [I think I got all the names right.] From One to a Hundred we do. It's a fact of life. But what does everyone long for? Agape Love--but we think we long for Eros Love. Why? Well we see it, want in and think we need it. Eros love only comes from humans. We can see humans and can feel them. We can only get Agape Love from Christ. But what if we don't believe in him or think he cares? We go after the Agape Love.

To tell you the truth I'm afraid of Eros Love. I sometimes find myself saying I don't believe in it which means I don't believe in Agape Love.

I guess my parents fallen marriage has to do with it but there's so much more than that.Everything I see---around me. I just don't get it sometimes. I'm sure most people don't.

Love. It's such a funny word. So pure, yet so distorted.

I guess I just want to know what it really is. What is love? Who is love? I know the Good-Christian child answers and I know their true. But I've never seen it. Anywhere.

The worlds a funny place.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Well this Blogger has sucked at Blogging.

Hey there guys!
 I know, I know, I haven't posted in--days, weeks maybe even a month almost. So, I'm sorry. I've been terribly bad.

How will I make up this hideous crime? Well, I'm not so sure but I will show you some of my NaNoWriMo. Would you like that? I hope so. But before I bless you with some of my most ah-maze-innng writing [snort] I'll give you a fun little fact about me.

I tilt my head while writing on paper and on the computer. I seriously turn it all the way to the side. I don't know why but I just do. I have a friend who sticks her tongue in her cheek all the time. So I guess I'm not alone. So here's what I want you to do: comment one thing YOU do that's really strange. It can be something you do while you work or when you're daydreaming...it really doesn't matter. Just tell me!

Now to my NaNoWriMo.

Oh! Wait! Never mind. I also got some news for you guys!!! I STARTED DRIVERS ED! Whoot Whoot! I'm pretty dang excited. I mean, I'll be driving soon enough. Wow, I remember the days that I thought I had years to wait, you know? I guess life is flying by. Does that mean I have to actually, I don't know, mature now? Sigh. I hope I do. I'm trying to. Maybe I shouldn't force it. ANYway. Another comment opportunity: What something you miss about being younger?
Mine? Playing. All. The. Time.
I mean, I use to be able to play an Imaginary (as my friends and I use to call it.)  game any time I wanted too. It wasn't hard to do. I mean, I was a killer actor back then! [Hahaha] What happened? Sometimes it makes me wish I was still six, but instead I'm heading on to be sixteen. Life, where did you go?

So, NOW onto NaNoWriMo. Hum?

Okay, here's part of the first chapter. Enjoy.
 [Don't mind grammar, as usual.]

"She leaned back into the capsized belly of the stand. A small, gloomy sigh escaped her lips. She loved her job; it was all she knew but she was yearning for something new. Something other than the daily routine she had settled into or the simple missions she was assigned. No matter what Theo said she didn’t understand why she wasn’t in The Prophets house. After all, it was where she belonged. The House, the current house she lived in, was full of idiots who didn’t know a kick from a punch, a sword from a shield and a real assassin from a bumbling fool.
            Andorea was an assassin. One of the best. Theo saw that, she saw that, but she was still stuck in a house full of first-timers and idiots."

Yeah, that's all YOU get to read. Keep you on your toes. [Or it might be that I'm ashamed of how bad the rest of the writing is. Hahaha!]

So, love you guys! Keep on reading [IF anyone is...] and have fun!

LIA
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