My Soldier Bleed and Died

I keep on seeing these post people make on Facebook (Oh, that dreadful thing...) with videos that support our troops.

I also see people 'liking' things that don't.

So, I was thinking about our troops and what they do, due to this one video my mother posted. (Mother! What a way to make me CRY. These types of videos are the only ones that can make me cry so hard. That's why I can't watch Black Hawk down and such...) In this one part the grandfather (you'd have to see the video. I'll put it on here at the end.) says, "I fought for you" and he's looking at his grandsons. Then another one turns to the camera and says, "I fought for you."

That's when I began to think about it. (When I think it seems to be dangerous, is it not?)We say no one cares about our country and such? I mean, I hear it all the time. "Our country is falling apart." And this--this is so true. So many things are happening in America that weaken the heart. But THINK about this--what about the men and woman who go into our armies and fight. Don't you think that's a sign that there is still hope? Not getting to you? Lemme try this.

Okay, so I know some people go into the army blindly. A lot don't though. They go in because they know this is where they need to be. And I also know some are recruited and have to (such and such...). Here's the thing though--they still fight for us don't they? They 'get down and dirty' just for their home land. Just for their family. Just for people they don't know. Can you believe that? Would you openly walk into a danger zone just for a random person? Think--would you really? I'm firmly believe that I probably wouldn't. But they do. Every day, every night sometimes.

You know what I think of when I think about this? I think about how Jesus died on the cross--just for us. People who mock him, tease him and turn our backs on him. We accuse him and spit at him.

Isn't that what people are doing to our troops? Hey now, I'm not saying our troops are Jesus--no I'm saying they are experiencing in a sense what Jesus did. Sure, they aren't taking the sins of the world but they are going in harms way for YOU and yet half of America calls them 'killers' and 'murders'. Think about during previous wars! Was it not (excuse me if I'm wrong...) the Vietnam Wars (I feel like I'm wrong!) that people would throw rocks at the army buses? In this current war--America's been no better.

I personally want to thank each and every soldier who's out there. Even if they don't want to be. Even if they're not on the 'frontlines'. Even if they've never seen battle. I want them to know that I appreciate and love them.

I also want to thank every Veteran. Where would we be with out you? I truly love you guys. God bless.

So, all I'm saying is our troops give more than we think about. I know tons of people say it but we need a reminder. ;]

Thank God for our troops and God bless 'em too!

So, that's all I got to say for now. I hope you enjoy!

Lia.

The video:

Lady Gagme and the cult of 'wannabers'

Ah, celebrities. What person doesn't secretly envy their glorious lives? Who doesn't sit watching the T.V grinding their teeth in jealously? And of course, who doesn't know who Lady Gaga is?

You don't know who she is?
Let me fill you in. Now.

Let's enter the secular world really quick, just for a second.
Lady Gaga is a new sensation. She's been taking over the radio, CD stores and just about everything else. But not only that she has her own unique style. She's worn things like a ribbon on her fave to practically nothing! She encourages people to be themselves. What a great message, right? She's not a faker, shes the real deal.

Please, gag me with a sweet potato.

Now into my Christian-like view.
Who is Lady Gaga? Well, Lady Gaga is--is--I could insert a lot of mean and bad words here but I won't. Anyway, who do I think Lady Gaga is? Well before I start she is defiantly not a lady. Lady Gaga might have some nice music [I do amidit that I like her song Alejandro a lot] that a lot of the world likes BUT her message has her all wrong. How she dresses, how she acts and her music suggest she's 'being herself'. Really? No. She's making herself what the world wants. Maybe I got her wrong but from my view I see her molding herself into the worlds wants. She became insane [haha] to be noticed. Just like a kid who acts up to be given attention from their parents.  See what I'm saying? She claims to be one way but she's actually the opposite. Since she is so 'big' [as in popular] she has a influence of people of all ages. I was looking at the newspaper and they had an article about a Lady Gaga concert. I read the caption to one photo of two girls who couldn't have been any older than tweleve, arm and arm in Lady Gaga outfits they made up. I cringed. I couldn't help but think about all the kids that hear Lady Gaga. I mean, I can hear her and inturpet the wrong from right in her songs [which are mostly filled with wrong...] but can these kids? I don't know and that scares me!

Lady Gaga also seems to promote 'Do what you want, it's okay.' She presents this attitude of the 'there is no wrong and right'. I of course, disagree. The line of wrong and right is vivid. Each and every one of us knows that because--well--we have a conscious. If there was no wrong or right our hearts wouldn't feel guilt would they? Or joy when we do right?

So, I like some Lady Gaga music but can I openly praise her for her work? No.
Even if she is a genuis in some sense. She has marketed herself perfectly. Like I said, she has molded herself to what the world begs her to be.

So, Lady Gaga and your 'wannabers' watch out.

-Lia-

Ever meet that one person who seems just---different?

Yeah, that's my question to you. 

So, have you ever meet that one person who seems to be completely  okay with themselves? They seem so content, perfect and well--perfect!  Have you ever wondered just how they can be like that? Does it irritate you sometimes?

It does me.

Sometimes I'll run into someone who seems to have no doubt about themselves. Every step they take seems sure. It can be aggravating seeing them like that when you're not yourself.

But I remind myself, everytime I see something like that, that I'm a work in progress. Hey, I might not be perfectly confident in myself but I'm getting there. And I'm myself, am I not? I'm not pretending! So, why fret? I'm becoming a little more sure in myself everyday. Sometimes I take two steps back but I  come back to the place I was.

I've grown a lot in the past few years. I use to be so--afraid. I wasn't just shy, I was scared. I didn't come out of my shell because I was afraid of coming out of my comfortable safety zone.

I realize, that was my mistake. I've gotten to the point were I can be me just about any where. I still struggle with it and such but at least I know I'm trying. This is an area where trying does count!

So, my challenge to you is to stand up and at least try to be who you are. I know, I know. You hear it allll the time. Even Macy commercials try and say it as they tell you just what to wear. I can remember watching some clothing stores commercial as they said, "It's the latest fashion trends" and right after, "Just be yourself!" Or something along those lines. Anyway, back to the point.

If you can try to be you you'll make a break through. If you try it will slowly become easier. Take this for instance:

When I was younger I wanted to do cartwheels. I really, really, wanted to. But I couldn't. Every time I would get ready to throw myself forward I would just chicken out. But it was that one time that I just made myself do it. Of course I didn't do it right--no! I wasn't afraid to try after that though. I wasn't afraid to throw myself forward and try. Soon enough I was able to do a cartwheel!

Or how about just last week we were at the lake and I was standing on the diving board. I said I would do a front flip off but I wasn't sure if I would. Wasn't sure if I knew how. I had run to do it several times and just ended up cannonballing but once again it was that one time I flung myself and I did it. I didn't do it perfectly, but I did it. For the rest of the day I did it. I loved doing the flips.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that once you try you'll--love it. You'll find joy in being yourself.

I know I've been sappy this whole time but we need it sometimes, don't we?

Your Friend,
Lia

All I have to say is that To Save a Life, the movie has pushed me even harder to do what God has asked me to. 

I wrote this poem, along with others, this past June. This will be my message. I kept the typos for a reason.

I am stronger than you know,

I've fought the toughest battles,

a matter of life and death.

Now I can tell you,

reading from the past,

not to give up on the hope that sits before you.

I know of the thoughts that drive you into insanity,

the words that hurt more than ripped flesh.

I know you don't want to loose it all,

at the same time you want to give it all.

I swear I know,

how you feel when the floor swallows you,

leaving you gasping for air.

I can feel the tears representing the pain,

pouring forth, which you can not hold.

I know, that you can make it through,

although it all seems bleak,

I know the burden your hold,

as it slowly pierces through.

You seem afraid,

this I know, but I also know,

all is not lost.

If you stand up with me I can show you,

what got me through.

I will help lead you to the light,

which brings life.

Although I still stumbled I'll still hold you,

with all my strength.

Take all the pain,

and put it in the past and walk away.

Forgive yourself what you've done to your heart.

I've already been there in a different way,

listen to what I have to say.

I know you hurt,

and I know your pain.

But I swear I can help you,

get out of here.

I swear I can love you,

like you've always wanted.

JM

 

Healing Begins

So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you're good
And you can't believe it's not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside

So let 'em fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find
That the shame won't disappear

So let it fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now
We're here now, oh

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don't fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

~The Healing Begins by Tenth Avenue North 

I am Madly in love with the Opera Ghost. 








From,
BOX FIVE 








Why, yes I am now reading The Phantom of the Opera and I am thoroughly enjoying it. And yes, I love the Opera Ghost so far. An yes, I am in love with him...after all guys in books are better right? 
I have gotten but only so far in the book and even though  I hate sappy romances I do like the book so far. There isn't a BUNCH of sappy things (from what I've read mind you) which I find pleasing. Even though I HATE romances (with a passion) I find this one very...nice. So, I'm not even sure if it qualifies as a romance, but it does for me!

Anyway, I swear I'm a friggin' insomniac. I've been having problems for what seems like forever and finally told my mother and now, no matter what, it's getting worse. *le sigh*

But anyway. I wish I was in dream land right now, but alas I am not. Because here's how the story goes: 
I was really, really tired last night. I went to bed around 10:30 and didn't fall asleep to 11-ish something. Usually I don't fall asleep till about a hour after I got in bed. (Or much, much longer actually.) Luckily, I fell asleep pretty quickly for me. 

THEN I woke up. Fell back asleep...
Woke up at five and have been up since. This is when coffee would be nice. And it's not just a random thing, I have been having problems sleeping for a while. Looooord help meh!

Okay, I'll stop complaing now I guess. I just--want some sleep. -_-

So, I love you O.G. 

Toodles,
Lia  

I Am Tired

I would utter words I understood,

if sleep didn't grip my soul, I would.

It's a terrible moment as I wearily sway,

thinking about dreams at bay. 

I could have sworn, just days ago,

it came so easily, like deaths cold grasp,

but now it's torture just to think about it. 

It's like being thirsty, but never able to quench, 

or hungry and ravenous, but no morsel in sight.

What has become of me?

Has a curse been set upon me,

so that I shall never close my eyes again?

Oh Lord, bless me. Take away this blight!

I want to rest,

in peacefulness to-night.

Lia

I Write Like

I write like
Stephenie Meyer

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

What Am I Doing?

SO, I decided not to do the Hurting Youth thing yet. I might sometime soon because it's something close to me. Anyway, I just want to say I have one of the best youth groups ever.
I love you CCC. (Crossroads Community Church)

I don't know if anyone understands how important ministering to our teens are. Like your youth pastors say, "Teens aren't the Church of tomorrow but today." That is kind of moving right, kind of makes your realize you don't have time to "wait" because you don't have tomorrow but today to worry about.

Which has also got me to thinking about what God wants me to do for him. I love working for him, although I don't always do it right. And I know I'm not always perfect, and I have no excuse other than I am human which I don't see as a great excuse. Do you? So I've been trying to think of ways to help my community even more. I have come up with a few ideas like a garden for our local nursing home and domestic violence center.

But I have also realized that I have been doing a good amount for God. Although I could be doing sooo much more I have been doing some.

#1. My mission trips each year. I've been helping people all over which brings all of us joy.
#2. APSRC and ASPCA. I love animals and God loves it when I take care of his creatures. He loves them too! Animals are more than some people think!
#3. National Right to Life. I'm defending the unborn. Those who can't speak for themselves. God commands us to do that. (I can't remember which Psalms or Proverbs but I know it's there. xP )

Those are some major things I've been doing, but even the simplest thing like helping some one you know out is a part, right?

So, I want to try and keep on helping everyone. For God.

When I went to the beach with some friends we went to a Church on Sunday that had some drive to them. Around a year old and on fire for our Lord. They kept it 'real' as some might say. ;)

What blew me away was the way they prayed for their fellow churches, by name. You never hear that anymore and even Paul did that. You can see it through out his letters to different churches. He asked for them to do so! But the way this church knew that every Church out there was ONE Church was amazing. We all tend to fall into this idea that as Churches we are in competition. They do know that the Church are the people and we need to get out there and work for our God in our community. They were reflecting on what they had done the past few months. I was blown away by their excitment for Christ and SERVING.

Anyway, that really made me happy. It also hit me hard because I had been hearing this message everywhere and so have all my friends. Think it's time? Yes.

So, this is my time to go out.
This is your time to get out.
This is the time for the Church to get out and off.

It's time!!!!!


With Love,
Lia